Feeling Useless

I didn't know it would be such a nightmare. I feel like I'm in some kind of movie. Last time, I would laugh at the characters - stupid betul, cannot find job. Mesti tak ada "liao" punya~

But now...
LOOK AT ME!!!

I don't even know whether I should be working for interest, for money, or just to survive. I feel such a burden, sitting at home and doing NOTHING!!!



I don't even know whether I should go to the interviews or not now they've changed the time *>.<

*ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Just this morning~

For the long run,
I wan2 learn, i wan2 switch and further my studies...I want to become a lecturer with FIELD experience...I want my experience to COUNT..

It's so depressing now, I'm actually getting desperate~
"To go, or not to go?" That is the question.

For media, newspapers offer Rm 2,500(plus allowance la)...But still!!! And now, magazines offer only RM 1,500 plus and they don't want to take fresh graduates like me!!! No opening now!!!

Fine, I applied for freelance writing, in a normal company, which only pays RM 5 per article. And guess WHAT?
They said I'm OVER qualified, tak mahu accept kan saya.

Okay, so now, big companies don't want to accept me based on the reason that I'm a fresh graduate. And small companies don't accept me coz I'm a graduate =.=||| What la???!@!@@!!!

I'm so upset!!! All these replies...Non-related fields give me non-related answers. I know nuts about business development and erm...properties? Yea...what's that? How can I write about such things that I can't comprehend myself?