Something Feels Not Right?

I dunno why I bother to even write this post. It's not for myself.

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So here's what God said to you, apparently la. Correct me if I'm wrong.


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" I, The Lord, I, Who never makes mistakes, made a mistake when I made you. You were a mistake. But never mind, since you're here, just let Me confess some things.

I love everyone around you. Think you read wrong? No, read again. I love EVERYONE but you. Yes, I am a very biased God. Why, you ask? Thought I'd told you just now. Ooops, sorry, let me make it clear again. I don't love you because you were a mistake.

So since you were a mistake, and I did not choose to make you happen or put you where you are. I have no special plans for you. Yup, none at all. Sorry if I ever got your hopes high.

You were made by me(again, sorry by mistake), and brought to a disadvantage. Nobody recognizes your talents, your character, even your existence. Maybe you have none. You were made to be a loser. And I, the Lord who is always the source of joy and hope say this to you. Read carefully. DON'T rejoice. You have nothing be be thankful about. Despair, always think others are against you, wonder why and feel lonely. All the time. But don't worry. I will send a group of people to sympathize with you. To keep telling you how sad your condition is, how it will get worse, how mean the people around you are...and weep with you. Then you can all indulge in self pity and sadness together. Because sadness comes from me. That is called understanding. And yes, carry on what you're doing.

Oh, wait, there's more. I can't do much for you. BUT you can always count on me when you want to cry. Then just sit there waiting for miracles to happen. No, you don't need to ask Me what is My will. I always let you meet with trials too much you cannot handle. It's for fun. There is no purpose at all. It makes me really happy when you fall down and hurt yourself. I will not be there for you. In fact, I always watch from afar and laugh. Oh, you think I'm heartless? Told you, I don't love you.

Who told you trials are to let people Grow? Increase your Faith? Experience or undergo Change? Help you learn to move on? What's all these long wordy words? Look, look, I will change the whole world around you. You just sit there and count on me to solve everything for you. That is called growing. Just lay back, cry and you will grow. There are no solutions to any problem .Problems frighten me in fact. Let you in a secret? Promise you won't tell? There are always problems greater than me, your God.

Yes I know. These people around you (not just a few people, it is actually the whole world) will always look down on you, be mean to you and refuse to be friends to you. They are horrid, cruel, unkind, and nobody will understand you. Yes, even your own family. They don't love you anymore don't they? Well, boo to them! Choose to ignore them k. Communication is not the key. Shut yourself up in your room and keep counting your sadness. I'm pleased to know you are accomplished in this skill(What?You thought you should count your blessings? Nah, that's getting old). And yes, to be loved and to love, you need to do absolutely NOTHING in return. Just wait for people to love and care for you la. Remain still. You don't need to do anything for them la. Don't waste your time. They don't need your love, and don't need to know that you care. They're wooden people anyway. No feelings, and only capable of hurting you. That's called family.

After family, friends come into the picture. Oh, poor you! The people you thought could be your friends will always leave you in the end, and they will refuse to be bothered by you. And yes, they will be against you for no reason at all. How I know? Oh, somebody told me that. I think you told me, that's why I know. Errr...actually I can't quite understand though my son Jesus Christ went down on earth to experience life as a human and die for everyone. But he didn't go through any of what you are feeling. So I, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit, all three of us, can't understand you. Perhaps you really are the saddest person on earth. I mean, even Job(约伯) from the old testament, though he lost all his sons and daughters, lost his house, lost all his possessions, his house and servants...was covered in painful boils ...all in one day...He found reason to be grateful and give thanks to me! You can't, so you must be the first person in human history that is in such great despair! Nobody can help you. No one, not even Me, and I'm the Lord Almighty.

BUT not to worry! It's all their fault, for being mean! Don't worry, you have nothing to be blamed of. What? Who said you need to take responsibility to make a change? You have nothing that needs to be changed! Blame all the people around you! And continue all you are doing. No problem! You were born to be lonely and deprived of companionship. It's meant to be anyway, right in my book here, on page 1178.

People around you will gossip about you, think bad about you, because all of them are too idle, and have nothing better in the world to do. I mean, seriously, thinking bad about you, plotting against you, is THE joy of their life. They will be the source of your despair. And being in despair is a blessing you know. Not everyone can be so sad for months and months. You live to be upset! That's your sole purpose in life! I mean, you've been doing really well, all these years on earth, you've really made good use of your youth and time! I'm proud that I made you and you've always stayed focused. As in, being focused on being sad, you know, always in despair. Good job! Keep it up! And I will always support you.



Sounds about alright? Go figure. Is this the voice of God, or the devil? Who are you listening to? Made the right choice? If so, carry on what you're doing.  

I'll shut up from now. No point wasting my time any longer. Just because I will say things you don't like to hear. Thanks for reading.