Okay, this post may sound stupid or meaningless to some people, but whatever it is, I need to let this out of my chest and I have no better outlet...>.< Ambiguous or nonsense...whatever it may seem to you, you are excused if you wish not to read.
Have you ever felt like slapping yourself? Well~ I really did so just now...and guess what? It hurt, but it DID NOT WORK!@!@!!! *screams in frustration...My rational and emotional side just WILL NOT cooperate...stubborn benar!@!@!!! *screams silently again~
You can delete handphone messages...But do you delete all of them? I just realised I'm still keeping more than 200 over of somebody's messages...stupid huh? I just cannot seem to delete them and end up reading them over and over again when I'm emo, making myself worse than before...=.=|||
Worse still, there are memories, old and new ones which haunt me sometimes in the day, sometimes in the night...Places we went to, places we said we would go but never did...
WORSE WORSE still~ are updated things I need to delete from my mind , as in really truly once in for all, DELETE!@!@!!!!***okay, this case is really going to be censored...and NOT because of 18 SFX reasons, but just because I don't want to say it here. Secret shall only be made known to KB, little Ben and Gail.
And oh!...Something to clarify. No, I'm NOT desperate as many people may think. I'm NOT hunting for a relationship and by the looks of it, won't be mature and stable enough to cope with any for at least more than a year. I'm merely hopeful towards my future to put it correctly. I fall for guys easily, yes, but I don't go around LOOKING for guys to fall for. My eye candies are all pretty girls but in case you are wondering, I'm not a lesbian either. Just don't really enjoy looking at really handsome guys coz they will never fall for me anyway. :(
Anyway, I hate myself for being stupid...As Ben told me, this is just so me~~~ =(
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