Touched...

Okay, yes God, again I'm sorry for complaining. There's still quite a number of good people in this world left.

Thank you for sending a really random angel to affirm and encourage me, just like that. I'm so touched You made me cry. Though it's nothing new, but I realise what message You are sending across again. (T_T)

It was actually a reply to my having "washed a beard prop" for this Wed's mission sketch with facial soap and dettol. =.=||| Coz somehow the strings looked like a mop, smelled like a mop (O.o) And the wearer got distracted and wanted to sneeze.

The Encouraging Message

Dear 美善,

Actually I don't mind because only a few scenes. Actually I would like to share with you. From last year at Kapar mission work with you whatever singing- dancing is really gave me a lot experience and learning and I very enjoy in serving in Lord because I saw you got a BIG HEART to serve in God.

Your loving and serving people is really so so touch for me. Can feel you are very good sister, in your arrange program, teaching, guiding, all come from true heart. Pls forgive my english poor hopefully able to understand. May Lord be you best friend in your life and always live in Jesus, walk with Jesus. Good night.

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There's no big deal in this message except the fact that I really had nothing to give at that time! I was broken, unstable, and anxious all the while. But I remember how everything worked well because God allowed it to. With the little experience I had, it was amazing how the whole team(mostly all senior brothers and sisters) actually cooperated to really train, listen and work out every tiny detail together. They were so sporting, so loving and so supportive I want to cry again now!

I recall how I was suddenly put in charge of the main programme and core event of our trip. How the results of the programme determined the result of our whole trip. How stressed I was when I was told that the whole trip's most important part was this. And we had goals to meet.

And I admit, I am really no leader. Have always been a good follower and supporter, but I cannot lead in anything. (Except kids)...but out of love for God and each other, they followed my poor lead.

I remember rebuking myself for not being like the sender of the message also. How he touched us all, the way he was so humble, so willing to learn and uncalculative in doing God's work. :'( I was so horrible, I actually told God I felt tired when I had to handwash all 10 costumes of the sketch after the whole thing.

I respect the way he served with all his heart really. How he quietly mopped the entire place super early in the morning. How he washed the extremely filthy toilet of that church without anyone asking, just because he thought it would be more welcoming for all the 100 over children who would be coming.

How he sportingly sang, danced awkwardly with me throughout praise and worship...

I feel I had gained the most from these beautiful people around me. For when we admit we are weak, then we are strong.

This time around, everyone was so nice. Like how everyone, involved or not involved in the mission work, stayed back so late on Friday night(despite having to come to church at 7.30am the next day), skipped dinner(coz we had a talk after work at 8pm), and helped us prepare all the complicated stuff we needed for 150 children's artwork materials. |

Touched how brother Vincent always makes sure I have transport to and fro church during meetings and practices. And how he waited outside for 15 minutes the other day after practice (coz we didn't know he was waiting and continued packing in leisure =_________=) to fetch us home and offered to take us for dinner/supper when he knew we had yet to eat. (It was almost 12am that time and he was dead tired.)

Am also touched the way everyone was so scared I would burn out and kept telling me to share the burden if the workload is too heavy.

Touched how despite my being so rude in ignoring (actually half because of sending the pointed message of rejection across +____< ||| ) Z(I KNOW I AM SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON), he was still always so nice to me, keeps sending bible verses to encourage me, and also makes sure I have transport home too.

It is also touching how pastor gave me a lecture on my health and why he thinks I keep falling sick. :'(

Actually pastor has been trying to catch me at a time for one-to-one talk because he sees somethings in my life that needs to be changed. I have this feeling that he has guessed correctly by all his hints and what nots...And erm...coz I'm a coward...I'm kind of avoiding him. =.=||| I know, God, I know. I will go find him on my own accord to settle. Please grant me the opportunity and courage to face myself...

Here's sharing the song we sang today. I know, due to lack of practise, our singing sucks. But I really love the lyrics of this song. Too lazy to type it out though. >.<

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