I am thankful that there are so many people to accompany me. So many people I actually know.
Liana was sitting beside me yesterday and telling me all about her work, how she felt a bit fed-up, tired, and sometimes unhappy. She is a nurse in Assunta who has also pledged to enter full-time when God calls her.
The speaker was preaching yesterday. And somewhere almost towards the end, he asked us to tell the person beside us "Don't be Discouraged". And I just did that when Liana started really crying(very serious case), with no stem in the flow. I was shell- shocked. (Coz as far as I know, I have always been the one doing this, not the other way round) Couldn't do much except offering her tissues and holding her hand. And she told me about how she just complained her work when there is so much more for her to do, and a purpose for God to put her in this field.
I was touched. How selfish I have been in the past! (T_T)
I don't know how to explain this. But yes, God is starting to equip us already, but we are not willing to do all things out of love for Him alone. I lean on my own wisdom at work, trust in myself...and though I have very pointed principles and work ethics, I don't think I have shone enough for Him at my work place.
The impression I give is still at the borderline of "kind-hearted, sweet, devoted Christian who spends a lot of time serving in church..." And that's all!
THAT'S ALL! :'( Have I actually shared when I could? Not my best attempt.
Have I actually prayed when I should? Not enough.
Is there an opportunity for me to do more? SO MUCH MORE!
Father, please forgive me.
I think me and Liana both cried when the speaker made us read the two sentences at the end of the sermon.
"Shine, See you in Heaven!"
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