Random Silent Rant

Semi-private post. Only read if you are a girl k.

Still have not figured out how to put the password protected thing neh. (T_T) Is it not available on Blogger?

NOTE: If you are a guy, you are totally NOT encouraged OR invited to read this post whoever you are. Scanning through the article below is a trespass on my privacy k.





















I'm sick. And I think it is(because my colleague Zoe suspects the same)because I was greedy and ate too many Rambutans last week in office(coz they were all peeled nicely already and nobody wanted to eat them)despite going outstation with Karen so many times(car heat)in the sun.

So not enough water, not enough sleep, too much rambutans and mandarin oranges = Sore Throat and fever. Karen is super sick and at first refused to see the doc but finally had to today. She's got 2 days mc. Something she really deserves seeing she always works 48 hours. She's so nice, but not appreciated enough.

I'm still working today. Not exactly that sick. Just feel uncomfortable with my swollen throat. Have already consumed a packet of Stepsils and a bottle(3 a day) of those strange rhino water stuff that never actually works for me. Gonna go drink bitter tea again tonight after dinner. I think I'm a frequent customer now. Must be my age catching up.

Great thing is work is not so stressful this two weeks. Though I still have to work on weekends(on and off).

My colleagues are nice enough to filter all my phone calls for me today. I'm very gentle in office which is kind of weird. Seeing that Karen is sick and I'm not able to make any exclamations/ fall over/ drop something/ laugh like I do...office is really very very quiet. For a change.

This applicant turned up today to sign an agreement with her husband. And she wanted to see the Ms Lee who always called her but my colleague told her I'm sick. She said it was a pity coz she wanted to see the actual face behind the very温柔voice on the phone. =.=||| So I did have to show face for a while in my 3 layers of clothing. I guess I must have proved to be a disappointment again. Most applicants expect me to be very pretty after listening to my voice(which apparently does not match my face enough. Zzzz. Can't be bothered to be pretty today okay. It's good enough that I did my eyebrows properly, put eyeshadow and mascara + blusher so as not to look too sick.


Hmmmmm~
Things have turned complicated recently.

Can't post too much coz there's this stalker on Facebook. I think I've mentioned this in some previous post. But yea, apparently, some people cannot get it that: If they text you every morning when they wake up, every evening, and every night AND you never reply. You are just not interested! GET IT WEI! Please laaa. =.=||| And WHAT'S WITH THE BIBLE VERSES DAY AND NIGHT~! Fine, I think it's meant to sound mature and close to God and I can't be too mean coz he's a new believer. But the bible verses are getting on my nerves coz they sound fake! Isn't my total ignorance plain rude enough already for him to take a hint? PLEASE! And no, I am not going to sit with you at church, even if you choose to sit alone. Yes, it looks sad from far, but I'm still going to keep my distance. And no, I won't have dinner with you any more than I can help it, unless it is within a group. Why don't you invite other people?

OH NO! I just remembered he lent me a book last time and I still have not read it! I went a bit mad the other day at the books warehouse sales near the place I work. And I forgot about his book! SHOOT!

Please don't freak me out any more than I am already.

And oh, guess what? After like umpteen years. I got this weird facebook message from my first bf. =__________+ AND a Facebook friend request from him. Which I have not accepted. (If Kricia and Debbie are reading this please do not laugh.)

So what God? Year 2012 is the year for confronting the past and moving on? I can sort of move on if the past does not keep digging itself up. The feeling sucks! But yes, I get Your point, it's like burying corpses and pretending nothing died inside right?

The message ran something like this:

"Hey, How r u? have a long time dint c u edi...
erm... just wish to say sorry for the past. I know dat dis sorry r no cure to you. but i'm just wish to apologize dat wat i did to you last time. No matter will u forgive me or not, i'm just feel really sorry. I hope dat i wont effect ur emotion. If dat is really happened, I just can say I'm really feel so sorry."

Hmmm~ to be honest, I don't hate him. Coz seriously, he's the one who lost marh. In whatever aspect also can say like that la. But then, to the injury part. What can I say? Perhaps merely the fact that he just added on to the lack of my faith towards men in general.

"Mum" said I SHOULD certainly accept his friend request to be the "bigger" person, and show him how brilliant and better my life is now. But it's not. Really. And I hate doing things with a bad motive. It doesn't make me feel any better either. Not that it helps right?

And I still have not solved my ongoing mess with B.

BLEARRRGH!