I'm all screwed up. Literally. It's tragic the way I got myself tangled into this ball of dunno wad it is. I want a new target, I want a new goal, I want to live my life to it's fullest again! I hate crying myself to sleep at night, knowing I'll wake up crying again tomorrow. I hate promoting things I'm not passionate about, OR writing about them. I hate thinking any thoughts related to love, relationships and whatnot, nor anyone mentioning this sort of thing to me. Whenever I think of such things, it brings back this super deep feeling of having your heart wrenched out and torn apart, and the last is like ages ago, but apparently it still hurts like a bitch. AND the thing is, I sort of lost my ability to love again. I hate people flirting with me. I hate so many things. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?@!?@???
And oh yea, I hate it when people feel sorry for what they have done and end up acting all apologetic and all that nonsense. If you ask me, no, I'm not okay, and just don't bug me okay? I don't hate you but I need time! And stop all these weird, out of the blue, awkward phone conversations that are like hanging half way and getting to no where.
I'm such a mess. I'm so tired of working non-stop every single day. I hate waking up dreading the day ahead of me. It's time to stop. To live for a reason. To smile for a reason. I am really exhausted. Physically and mentally. And the best thing is, I have work a full day tomorrow again. God help me please!!!!!
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